Monday, December 2, 2013

So loooooong....

It has certainly been a LONG time since I have posted here. It's not that I haven't been writing at all...I would curl into the fetal position rocking and drooling if I wasn't writing daily I am sure...It's that I was trying to simplify and slim down my life, and, of course, it didn't work. But I di learn alot of valuable things about myself.

1. I am not good at simplifying
2. I am even worse at follow through
3. Coffee is my friend....wait....I knew that one...
4. There is nothing that is too big for God (I knew that one too, but I tend to be short sighted at times)
5. I am proud of what I do (That was one heck of a revelation!)

So, here I am, back at it again, working to be the best at being the me God created that I can possibly be, handling the diversity of a huge family, staggering under the weight of mountains of laundry, cooking for 12 even when there's only Big Daddy and I at home because I forgot the rest of the brood had plans and living on coffee and leftovers :)

I look forward to seeing where my random Insanity takes me this time...hopefully you do too. Hopefully we both learn something along the way. Hopefully....

Be well!

Apples of Gold

Psalm 97:11 “Light is sown for the righteous and gladness for the upright in heart.”

One of the things that God has been teaching me lately is that it’s not all about “now”. I know that we say, “Don’t focus on tomorrow because today has its own worries”, and that is true. Of course it’s true; Jesus Himself said it. But there is a balance between living in the present and having a firm, solid, real hope for tomorrow, for the future. You see there’s a difference between living in the present and living for the present.

Sometimes as life comes at us we have to plan ahead, look to our future and spend time concerning ourselves for the things that are to come. For example: If we never thought about the future we wouldn’t have first aid kits in our houses or food in our refrigerators for more than a day or winter coats stored away in summertime. These things are reasonable preparations for the future. This verse reminds us that God also has made preparations for the future.

When we are going through a dark or unfruitful time in our lives, when looking at the, seemingly empty, fields around us yields no comfort against our anxieties for the future we have a sure hope through God’s Word that He has sown good seed in us and that seed will grow into light and gladness for our souls. We can find rest in the fact that under the surface the germination of our joy has already begun; the beginnings of Jesus Himself, growing in and through us, setting down a network of strong roots that cannot be removed even if the whole vine be cut off by trial and tribulation, is taking place. How amazing! What peace we have in knowing that, regardless of what we see on the surface, life dwells within us and that life will break forth with light and gladness in due season. My Friends, that is what we live for. That hope for our future is what makes it possible to be strong and filled with courage in the present. That is the promise of God.

Yes and Amen!

P.O.W.E.R. Dec. 2, 2013

P.O.W.E.R. = Pray ~ Own It ~ Worship ~ Express It ~ Read
Pray. “Father, please forgive me for looking at my life and what You would have me do through lenses clouded by the achievements of others. I am sorry for forgetting that I am made to be me and me alone. The merits of others are praise to you, not a standard to me. Not that I should not follow the example of the godly, but that example should be a generic one that points me to lean more heavily, love more deeply, seek more diligently You and Your will, not a checklist of “should have’s” for my life. I could say that I will not do this anymore, but it is a pattern of wrong thinking, a twist in my thought processes that I cannot undo on my own. I ask for Your mercy Lord; that You would give my Your Word to renew and transform my mind so that my thoughts are founded on what is absolute rather than what is relative. I need Your Word to change my mind Lord Jesus. Speak to me Spirit and reveal the truth about those things that confuse or confound me so that I can be rid of the garbage thought patterns of my flesh and renewed to righteous thinking in You.
Own it. Psalm 97:11 “Light is sown for the righteous and gladness for the upright in heart.”

Worship. “Arise, Shine! For the light has come”

    “Lord You are my Light (Psalm27:1, 5-6)”

Express it.     Light that shines in the darkness
                        Hope that scatters the rain
                        Love and peace that surround us
                        Dispelling shadows of pain
                        Arms reach out to enfold us
                        Fear dissolves in their embrace
                        Shame and grief lose their harness
                        When we whisper Your name
                        Oh Lord, I love You
                        Will always love You
                        For who You are
                        My Lord I love You
                        Will always love You
                        For who You are
                        And I don’t want to seek Your hand
                        I want to seek Your face
                        And I will never understand
                        Why You took my place
                        But Lord, I love You
                        Will always love You
                        For who You are.
                        Yes Lord, I love You
                        Will always love You
                        For who you are.
                        You sow in light, we reap in mercy
                        From ashes we rise up to grace
                        Your Spirit fills us with power
                        To share loves freedom and faith

Read. Psalm 97:11, John 1:4-5, 2 Corinthians 5:20-21, Isaiah 60:1, Revelation 21:23

Happy Monday!!

Happy Monday

Happy Monday! It’s a new day. It’s a new week. It’s a new opportunity to fall in love with Jesus and experience all of the blessings found in His embrace.

We had our Community Thanks Giving dinner yesterday. It was great! Tons of family and friends, wonderful praise and worship, terrific messages and testimonies about the goodness of God…AND fabulous food! What more could a person ask for? It was so awesome just to be there.

Of all of the messages the one thing that struck the deepest chord in me was “I’m thankful just to be able to give thanks.” What a beautiful sentiment. Some people may look at it as a melancholy or depressing statement but I don’t see it that way at all. I see it as a message of hope; the response of inner strength to adverse circumstances. It reminded me that, in the darkest of my hours, I still had a voice, still had breath in my body, still had enough sanity to be able to recognize that, though I may not have all I wished for, I have a Savior and because of Him, my salvation is secure. What Joy! What Victory! How can I not give thanks for that?

Being a Christian means that I know, if my life is at its end I am blessed, because I will wake up in Glory. And if my life is meant to go on from that darkest of moments, that worst of nightmares, that deepest of the depths of despair, I am blessed because that means He intends to walk the further with me, guiding me, loving me, holding me, saving me. I know this because His word promises it over and over, “I will never leave you nor forsake you.” “Nothing can separate us from the love that is in Christ Jesus.” “I am the God who heals you.” “Be strong and courageous for I am with You.”

As this week begins, whether the coming holiday makes us aware of how much we have, or how much we do not have, whether you are struggling with loneliness and loss or the stress of a house burgeoning with visiting family and friends, think about it for a moment, regardless of where you’re at, what you’re going through or how you feel; can you be thankful for the breath in your body? Can you be thankful for the voice in your throat? Can you be thankful for the God who does not promise you tomorrow but does promise that if tomorrow comes, He will come with it? I am grateful today for the opportunity and the ability to give thanks to my God and King, Jesus Christ, for all that I have and for all that I don’t.

Monday, July 23, 2012

Happy Monday

Hey there y'all!

It's been insanely crazy around here lately...between recovery and summer stuff and house repair...whew! It's been....well....normal!

Football has started again. And I am back to work 2-3 days a week. Over all there are just lot's of changes going on and it's all difficult to adjust to. I know I NEED to blog. i just haven't been able to eek our any kind of creative continuum in my life. This WILL change.

For the time being I am letting myself off the hook though.

I'm going to get back to blogging Monday, Wednesday and Friday. That should give me the breathing room to be able to get back to being myself without feeling stressed out because I have to be me...yeah...I shouldn't be stressful to be myself...but , you know, you try

On a VERY good note. I'm doing well with controlling my diet. I have lost a pound every week since my heart attack without exercise (yes, I know I need to be exercising...I'm getting there...sheesh...) and I'm really proud of that. Today Bubba and I begin a form of power yoga that involves swords. (We ARE the Adams family!) and I've been trying to get out and walk somewhere each day.

So for today I will say I miss everyone terribly. I haven't had time to read or catch up with any ones blog. I'm totally out of the loop. I will remedy that ASAP :)

Be well my friends.

The Music

 I have an electrician coming in 45 minutes to shut off the power and rewire the house (happy dance) So this weeks playlist is a little rough.  This weeks music is just what moves me...literally. I can't hardly stay in my seat when I hear these songs. I hope they get your blood pumping as well :)

Dhoom Again ~ Dhoom movie soundtrack

Funky Jesus Music ~ Toby Mac

Move ~ Flame Ft. Forever

On The Floor ~ Jennifer Lopez live

Blow ~ Kesha

Keys to the Kingdom ~ Group 1 Crew

One World ~ Toby Mac (for Zabo)
No So Average ~ V. Rose

Turn it Around ~ Israel Houghton and New Breed

Aa Tayar Hoja ~ Asoka Movie Soundtrack

The Madness's there...I just don't have a handle on it enough to be able to tell you what it is this week. I'll know by Wednesday! :)

Me :)

big Daddy, Laurana and myself in 1993.

In honor of my Baby Girl's 21st Birthday

I love you baby!!!

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Tuesday Already?

I know it's late to start a post that is supposed to be posted on Tuesday....but everything in my life is a tad off kilter at the


Honestly...If I'm really being honest with you wonderful folks at this present time in my life what I love the most is


Yes, ladies and gentlemen, that elusive, near empty since childhood bank account of ZZzzzz's. It's the one thing I can't seem to get enough of lately and I am always SO grateful when I wake up and it is actually MORNING not the middle of the night. (Naps ain't too bad either!)

Before my heart attack I was a borderline insomniac. I could go for days without hitting that REM sleep. I would lay down and wake up, hour after hour, always wondering what in the heck woke me. I would not startle awake. I don't have a sleep disorder (except in the instance that NOT sleeping is very disorderly :) I simply have been a mom for 21 years now and had a weird and sometimes scary childhood before I have a pattern of unsleep.

Now..I can sleep for a few hours at least without waking up. And when I do wake up, I'm usually not tired. I'm actually awake. Not dragging myself out of bed headed for the only two places that matter when you have a major sleep deficit in your life; the bathroom and the coffeepot!

Sleep and I used to have a love hate relationship...I loved to hate how much sleep I messed every night. NOW....I sleep, and it's awesome. (why didn't you people tell me it was this good?) I have even, in the past, tried sleeping pills...not the serious kind that carry all the weird scary warnings like : while taking this medication you may experience diareah, nausea, sleep walking, uncharacteristic behavior, sleep aggression and suicidal thoughts....wowzers...just the little Advil PM stuff. No go. It kept me up ALL night. I didn't sleep at all on those things. But

I LOVE sleep :)

I hope all of you rest well tonight. I have a bit more writing to do then I am going to happily lay my head in a non fluffed pillow on an imperfect bed with a great guy (hey...I'm married:) and I am going to sleep until the sun comes up.'s summer. I might sleep until AFTER the sun comes up.

Happy Dreams to You...until I post again ;)

Monday, July 9, 2012

Music, Madness and Me

Good morning Campers! I have come to some Earth shattering conclusions over the last few weeks and i would like to share them with you this morning (it's all love baby!)

1. High heat combined with humidity absolutely sucks!

2. Hanging out with grown up type people, without my children in tow, is actually a great way to reduce Date Night Rocks!

3. If I'm going to live I should probably start treating my body better than I do my luggage (which is either under stuff on the closet floor or M.I.A. I'm not sure, I haven't thought about it in a while.

Ok, maybe not so Earth shattering. Actually maybe it's just common sense...I seem to be missing that particular human genome though so, to me, these are discoveries on the same level with the Hershey Bar.

Onto the Music!!

When i was thinking about this weeks playlist the first song that popped in my head was "Stayin Alive" by the BeeGees. I smiled, giggled just a bit, rolled it around in my head and decided...why not? :) So here it is, My "Stayin Alive" Disco playlist.  (this aughta be fun!!)

If you're gonna do Disco...this is where you have to start. (Besides...I WILL survive this...and many more things to come ;)

I Will Survive ~ Gloria Gaynor

I know that living with heart disease is going to be a challenge, it's going to be a struggle, but, in this case the ends justify the means. I simply have to decide it's more important to stayin alive than to eat cake...(evil, bad, sinfull, delicious, rich, sweet cake....ok...I'm workin on it!)

Stayin' Alive ~ The Bee Gees

I also know I have to do things to change my life, like exercise more. I'm thinking about a membership here...

YMCA ~ The Village People

Although, like I said before, I LOVE to dance. i love to feel the beat in my bones and just move with it...

Turn The Beat Around ~ Vickie Sue robinson

It may take allot of work, but it's not worth giving up. I can't quit, can't stop, not until I get to where I need and want to be...

Don't Stop Til You Get Enough ~ Michael Jackson

Because this is it...If you knew the life I lived before I was a just so average, not so average suburban housewife you would know, I'm on my 9th life baby

This Is It ~ Kenny Loggins & Michael McDonald

no matter what though...this isn't a time for fear and frustration. If anything, it's a time for celebration! I'm alive! Shoot, can't get much better than not dead!!

Celebration ~ Kool and The Gang

When it comes to the future, who I want to be and what i want to achieve, I'm not daunted by this little bump in the road at all. In fact I'm SO excited to be in this place...why not be? beginnings are always exciting!

I'm So Excited ~ The pointer sisters

Ive already completing the hardest part of this journey...facing the fact that this is not a short term thing, it's a disease I CAN control with help from my wonderful friends and family. I couldn't do it alone, but I don't have to because that's just what family is about.

We Are family ~ Sister Sledge

It's MONDAY...time to get up, get moving and put my plans for the week to work for me rather than sitting back and letting my circumstances run my life! Time to hustle people *Muah!*

The Hustle  i don't care where you are right now...if you're reading...why not get up and take a minute to just shake off the stress, relax your mind and "Do the hustle!"

The madness

1. My first day back to work and it's going to be 14 hrs. sounds insane I know, but it's the quarterly meeting and big daddy needs me. He's been awesome though. I know if I'm too tired to go to work with him after the meeting he will bring me home. Lets hope I can hold out! I really need to get back to work. (He's REALLY disorganized and stressed without his

2. I'm on week 2 of the SB lifestyle. the first two weeks are habit breaking weeks. i gave up all carbs last week and totally lowered my sugar intake by like a bazillion grams a least, that's how it felt. still no carbs this week (none from breads or grains, pastas or you know how hard it is for an Irish woman to live without potatoes? Gah!) I did rather awesome last week and am looking forward to being equally impressed with myself this week :)

3. EVENTS! we have allot going on this week.

football game (scrimmage) Wed
Date Night Thurs ~we're going out with a group of friends to "chill"
Great America Fri.

i was supposed to chaperone this trip to Great America, but it's not on the "light duty" list i got from the i had to bow out. I'm was my year to go. (Do I sound 9 yet?) Tabby also doesn't get to ge because I won't be there and all of the other youth in the youth group are 16 and over. big Daddy said he would make it up to both of us though...he is going to take us and Tabby's BFF an adorable little tweenie named Kemma, to Deep River Water Park in a couple weeks. Yay me!

4. Yard work. My garden looks amazing...even in this heat. I haven't forgotten to get it watered even one day and everything is just growin and bloomin...yay! I will have more cucumbers and tomatoes than I know what to do with before you know it. The weeds are equally thrilled with my garden feeding practices however and they have taken full advantage! Gotto get some work done...maybe Saturday.

5. Get back on track with the kid of the week. The kids have been AMAZING through all of this. Bubba will just stop in front of me and hug me (He's 5'8" now Laurana...gah!) boyo has been doing all of the "heavy" work around the house. tabby has done dishes, vacuumed floors, played with her younger (and far less interesting than herself ;) siblings so I can rest and Zabo...well she walks around doing cheers all day and just makes me smile. Moose tells me stories and Laurana makes me smile with her million and one FB comments about Dr. Who...(a million and two would just be annoying) I want to get back to celebrating each of them, spending time alone with them, showing them that life isn't all about "If Momma ain't happy..." Time alone...or at least devoted to each of them is on my list of madness this week!


Never forget folks...Life Is Good! consider the alternative :)