My oldest son will be 17 on Sunday...17!! Big daddy asked me if I was feeling old...not really. I rarely have moments in life where I feel over 17 myself. I do, however, feel deficient. I feel like he isn't ready to be 17. I feel like I have missed so much that I should have taught him by now. I know I did my best, that doesn't mean it was enough though.
He is an amazing human being, don't get me wrong. He's not a ne'r-do-well or anything. He doesn't do drugs or drink. He doesn't date because 1. He doesn't have a job and I've made it clear I am not paying for him to take some little heifer...young lady, excuse me...out on a date. If he wants to date he can work. That's just how I feel. I always told my oldest daughter not to date a guy who was always broke and left her to pay for everything. There's no shame in being poor...but guys need to be able to stand on their own, not schlep off a woman. That's just how I feel about it.
The other reason he doesn't date is that he is really picky. He is looking for a young woman who shares his faith and has the kind of energy and zest for life he does but also can be soft and loves to cuddle...yeah, she's gonna be a tough one to find..lol I believe she's out there though, so I encourage him to wait and tell him how proud of him I am for keeping his standards.
Boyo doesn't really give me any reasons to worry about him other than the fact that he IS going to be 17 on Sunday. He has an amazing personality. He is charming and smart. He is fun to be with and I will honestly say that he is becoming a terrific guy. I just want so much for him. I want him to be the kind of man I would trust my daughters heart, spiritual leadership and future to. I don't see that yet....but then again...he will only be 17 this Sunday.
So, my son, my very own "Peter Pan", I want to know that I love you so very much and I am PROUD of all that I see God doing in your life. You are an amazing human being and I'm grateful that you are MY son. Thank you for allowing me to continue to be a part of your life. Thank you for including me in your thoughts and sharing your dreams with me. Thank you for being my Boyo.
If I could share one thing with you for this coming year in your life it would be this: God is the animation behind all creation. Without Him we are the walking dead my son. He is what gives the motion of our lives purpose. seek Him Boyo...reach for Him, honor Him and He will open your mind and your heart to things that you could not have even dreamed of, they are that wonderful. You may be the dancer in this song of your lifetime my precious son but He is Lord of the dance.